You are in a queue and an hour later you are still in the queue. There’s still time for your turn.
At the metro station, you lean over the platform and your eyes stretch as far as they can hoping the next train will take you where you want to go, but it’s not there yet.
Sometimes when I think I am there, I am not there yet. Sometimes when I think this is it, it isn’t yet. My mind wonders and wanders hoping to find an answer to “Why not yet?” But then, there is no answer yet.
Patience is definitely a virtue. But no book mentions how much of it is a virtue. I haven’t found this quantified yet! I feel it’s a very demanding virtue. Rather a greedy one. It asks me to stay calm and composed, keep waiting as long I can. But it never tells me if it’s already my turn.
There are infinitely many things I am waiting on. And the amount of patience that I have to hold on to definitely is random. Its distribution is a monotone non decreasing function with respect to time. There seems to be no damping. Forget damping, it does not even oscillate. It’s proud to behave as a cumulative distribution function.
I keep waiting and thinking, when is it my turn anyway? Food did arrive at my table. I got out of the queue finally. The train took me where I wanted to go. But patience grew more greedy. It asked me to wait a rather long wait. Again, it did not quantify how long. It loves the law of probability. But it never specifies a confidence interval. I guess it’s lost in its greed. Or may be I am lost because of its greed. When I come out of it, then will be my turn. That’s what I feel. However nonsensical I may sound!